Legacy

Monday May 22nd. 2017 
If I have seen further it is by standing on the shoulders of giants. - Newton, Isaac
What is it that I'm afraid of the most?
I'm afraid to die. I'm afraid to not be remembered. I'm afraid to live a life unloved. 

I am now part of somebody else's legacy, and I am beyond honored. 

How much of my personality and identity is me, and how much is it legacy from others?

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